One more before and after comparison. To go with the earlier post on finding inspiration.
The before :
But then they are not as beautiful as the work I saw and I guess I give up on it. Now on writing this I realize everybody needs time to learn and the image that inspired me was probably not the persons first attempt at that. It was more likely the product of honing a skill for a while. I have just realized I should give myself time to learn and to pursue. I always want to learn something instantly and have the skill instantly. If I don't I give it up and do something else.






What stuck with me was that she chose not to focus on the pain but on the good things in life. Someone has written a book about her called "the girl in the picture". I ordered the book so I can remember this remarkably inspirational person.
I also started to notice some of the shapes in the frills and the buds.
I got to 43 photographs before my imagination ran out. In hind sight I could have varied the lens, my point of view and the DOF more and I noticed I immediately looked through the camera in stead of studying my subject first. I did study it later on in the process but perhaps it would be good idea to also start with just looking thinking what attracted me to subject in the first place and to try and see it. What I liked the best was taking the time to really look at my subject and ponder the different possibilities. That's when I actually lost track of time.
Too bad it isn't as sharp as it should have been but I was to lazy to get the tripod.
One of my two cats has been shaking her head quite a bit and fell over the other day after vigorously shaking her head. She miauws a lot but she's a Siamese so I did not think of it as strange. After seeing her fall over I decided to go to the vet, who examined her ears. The vet could not get a clear view and advised me to have her put under anesthetics so she could have a good look. We made an appointment a few day's later on Monday. During the weekend I visited some friends and they said their cat also sometimes fall over after shaking their head and this was quite normal behavior. Now I tend to always see the worse case scenario and try not to react to this to much. So I heavily doubted my decision to have the cat anesthetized all weekend. Deciding not to go and then thinking she was really shaking her head a lot and deciding to go. This went on until the moment I brought her to the vet, I considered taking her back while at the vet. But in the end I took her to the appointment. The vet called me to tell me the cat had an inner ear infection and will be treated with antibiotics. They also extracted some bad teeth and took a lung photo. She has a history of coughing and the photo confirmed she has some thickening of the longtissue. So now I am glad I did bring her.
So do I publish what I really liked or did I pick the ones that I though worthy of publication? I tend to only "like" my photo's that are technically well done. Perhaps I focus to much on that? Looking through the files I remember that I took this one without thinking. I did not check my camera settings and it's cluttered with all kinds of stuff. But I keep coming back to it, I really like it, more than the other images in the file. This little cat, going off doing her own thing, walking away. I like the contrast in the image and the B&W. And this was one I did not publish probably because I thought it was not good enough.
There is one more image I kept coming back to. It's so delicate and light. I did publish this one and it is my second favorite from my inspirationfile.

As an opening to this blog I want to go back to the beginning and just wander around in my mind for a while meditating on why I take pictures in the first place.
These are some of the reasons that come to mind.
Freezing time:
The one that pop’s up the most is to freeze time and keep that moment alive forever in the picture. I forget a lot of things so easily or never even notice them because I don’t take the time to see. I am always busy with the next moment to come or the moments that have past. Taking a photo puts me back in the present time, I can keep forever something that otherwise would be gone. Some people can keep these moments in their mind but I need something visual to help me remember what a place looked like or how someone or something looked.
Then once I have taken the photo and am processing it I start to notice all kinds of beautiful detail, the way the light was falling, the color of the light, the details in e.g. the flower or the expression in the eyes, the colors in the image.
Looking at my photo’s or other peoples after they are presented has something so peaceful about it, as if time stands still for a little while.
To tell a story:
Looking at other peoples blog and flickr has shown me there is a story to be told. It doesn’t have to be one image in time but it can me a number of images telling a story as well. How some things belong together or where it adds to the story. I love reading blogs with beautiful images and written stories explaining why the images were taken of what was going on at the time. I want to learn how to do this.
To think about the positive things in life:
It’s always so easy to get caught up in things you have to do, to get stressed out about meeting deadlines, to worry about all my problems. It’s also important to look at what’s positive, photography helps me with this.
The technical side:
I like this as well. Just figuring out how the camera works and what effects can be reached with it. What happens if I use the flash, use a different aperture , how did someone else get that effect. What props can I use, what techniques can I use. Knowing the why.
Because someone asked me to:
Sometimes someone asks me to take a picture of an occasion or a person that has a special meaning to them. This is where it gets a harder, all sorts of questions arise. Do I try to take the image the way I like it or the way I think they like it? Will they like it. Will I mess up and not get a good image. If they are happy with the image I feel good, if they don’t like it I feel really bad about it. I obviously have some self reflection to do here.